Not Giving In
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This weekend I’m going with my granddaughter to the Phoenix Herpetological Sanctuary along with the next two I have places that I want to go and do, so my OCD ramps up. What I mean is I worry about getting sick. If I get sick in any way then I will miss what I want to do. My OCD starts talking to me. You know if you grab that door handle you will get sick. That person doesn’t sound good. You should take more vitamin C when you get home, and what else do you have at home to help you not get sick. I should probably stop at the store to pick up stuff to help me not get sick. I in fact know I was around a person this week who came into work not feeling good after being sick all weekend. This didn’t help my OCD. When this happens I have to be on the look out not to give in to OCD. I cannot stop touching door handles, being around people who sound bad, wash my hands too much to keep the germs away, or start taking stuff to prevent myself from getting sick. These are all compulsions. If I let even one of them start getting a grip on me, then the other ones will follow right along together and they will all start taking over my mind again. I will not let that happen. I’m more vigilant with myself. If I do not grab a door handle, then I will stop and make sure I grab it the right way. I also did this with the person who was sick all weekend. I stood and talked to them, and didn’t back away when they were next to me. With this comes ruminating. I have to just let it go and move on. It is easier said and done, but over the years I have gotten better with stopping ruminating. In this instance when it keeps popping into my mind for the reason of being about a lot of people including a lot of children, I have days that I have to stop rumination from coming on several times a day. My week from Wednesday on was pretty good with not ruminating along with a lot of things at work going well.
On Thursday I went to the Cox store to have my mom’s phone number stopped. This has been hard to say the least. I cannot believe that I’m grieving over a phone number. I have learned something new. That you can grief over anything. No one should make fun of you for it. Mom told me that you should learn something new every day. Go learn something new.
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October 11, 2025 is Phoenix One Million Steps for OCD Walk. 8:00 a.m. - 10:30 a.m.
I will be at the walk next Saturday. Come support people with OCD.
Here are some websites to find help with your OCD.
In Arizona
https://ocdandptsdtherapy.com/
https://ocdaz.org/
United States & Global
https://iocdf.org/programs/conferences/?gad_source=1&gad_campaignid=20295458322&gbraid=0AAAAAD3KKFE7_I6w2iG6UR0ya0vTONg42&gclid=Cj0KCQjwzOvEBhDVARIsADHfJJRvqrNH9UmVG9j-5QUox1fhxUldNOWw1CDKoTQnUecpSXilr_4heKoaArw2EALw_wcB
Please remember that I am not a therapist, but a person who has OCD, cares about others, and wants to help any way I can. I am not giving advice. I am just telling my own experiences, and praying my experiences help someone. If you need help please go get the help you need.
Until next time,
Tracy T. Agnelli
