Doing Better
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I’m doing better than last week as far as emotions go. Not as down as I was, so that is good. Still dealing with the phone number with Cox. I talked to my therapist Rachel this week about my mom’s phone number and broke down crying. I talked to two family members today about the number too with the same result. I’ve decided to let the phone number go. Have you ever heard of a grief box? I haven’t. Rachel told me it is a box of any size or shape that you put stuff from the person you lost that reminds you of that person, and you can look at it whenever you want. Mom had a big hope chest that I’m going to use as her grief box.
As far as my OCD went this week, it was better. I stopped myself a couple of times when I started to do a compulsion. I still need to pay attention all the time.
Now let’s go back to a couple of weeks ago when I was telling you that I had extreme OCD, and at my peak I was washing around one hundred times a day. I used a lot of soap and lotion, especially lotion. My hands would sometimes bleed for the reason of me washing my hands so much, and not just in the winter time. I stopped eating with people including my family. This is hard to even think about. I would eat in my room or at a family gathering I wouldn’t eat at all. I was a loner, even when I lived with my parents or at family gatherings. I’ve been doing a lot better with this since I’ve gotten better with my OCD, but I still have a ways to go. I need to open up more even with my own family.
Rachel gave me a book to read. Out of my Shell Overcoming Social Anxiety from Childhood to Adulthood by Natasha Daniels. It is about anxiety, but it was good. I got several things out of it. One thing I do is at gatherings I am so nervous to talk to people or afraid they will talk to me that I just pull out my phone to scroll through it even if I have nothing to look at. I am going to stop being afraid of talking to people or them talking to me. I’m going to not bring out my cell phone. I’m going to look at people, and try to have a conversation with them. I don’t think I have bad anxiety or anxiety whatsoever, nevertheless this book could help you like it helped me, just maybe in other ways.
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October 11, 2025 is Phoenix One Million Steps for OCD Walk. 8:00 a.m. - 10:30 a.m.
Here are some websites to find help with your OCD.
In Arizona
https://ocdandptsdtherapy.com/
United States & Global
Please remember that I am not a therapist, but a person who has OCD, cares about others, and wants to help any way I can. I am not giving advice. I am just telling my own experiences, and praying my experiences help someone. If you need help please go get the help you need.
Until next time,
Mr. Semi-normal Tracy T. Agnelli
